It’s a strange thing life. I personally have been having a real hard time of it what with CFS & intolerance’s that includes nearly every food you can imagine. But, for me the strangest thing about my life has been the odd nudge now and again that has made my life change radically & leaving behind the present and the past!
My first experience of this was when I was 21 when being a lad who was always in control of his vehicle, on one night I lost control of my car inexplicably. It was doing what I would not normally do. The car crashed with 2 passengers in the back of the car as well. I went into panic mode. I could not understand what was happening. My passengers and I were all okay but I could not explain what happened in the accident as I had no-one to blame. I simply lost control, or so I thought. It bugged me for many years until yet again another thing happened.
On moving in with my brother to help him finish renovations to his home who lives in Nuneaton, I had misgivings about living in that house. I can’t explain why but something was wrong there. Within 1 month of being there I had somehow started having serious problems which later turned out to be CFS. I cannot explain how it happened but it all started there. About 3 months later after he had moved all his family back to that house there was fire. It was in the back room where my brothers daughter was sleeping. I was fast asleep at the time when all of a sudden I felt someone come into my room and shake me awake. Never experienced anything like it before. A proper shaking of my body. I later heard my niece complain about the heat from the bed she was lying on. My brother shouted switch the electric blanket off. She did but, then she shouted Dad there’s smoke coming from the bed. I got up my brother was in a panic running downstairs and filling a bowl of water. I said what you doing, he said there was a fire and he needed to fill the bowl to put out the fire. I said “No get the kids out and close the fire door and then call the fire brigade”. He then did that, the room had been engulfed in flames but the house was saved as we had put fire doors in. This bugged me again as I’m sure someone saved us.
Now, again the night before last, I was shaken out of my sleep again. I looked at the clock which read 04:17 am whilst in a daze, but this time less scared and more “so what”. I have had so much pain in the last five years I simply couldn’t give a damn if I was going to die or not. My wife of the last 16 years, who has been a real help most of the time is a bit of a reader. She always seems to get tarot cards to say exactly what is happening to my life in the future. So, I suppose she’s very good at it but, she does not like doing readings as there are so many negative people out there that the cards foretell many woes and she cannot bare to tell them the truth. She always tended to just focus on the positive points instead of giving a whole reading. With me she’d tell me how it is. But, after our son died in 2014, I said I’d had enough. No more readings.
My ex-wife to be also knows runes and numerology. She checked the number 417. Apparently, I have reached my life’s mission and am now going to reap the rewards before passing on to the next life. No surprises there as we are getting divorced I need to move out and live my life on my own as my health does not allow for anyone else in my life.
What’s my point? My point is along the way in your life, it’s likely you will get a nudge or a mistake you cannot explain, moving you to the next goal in your life. What does this mean? It means it’s very likely we have no control over our destinies and therefore it’s likely that your life is as pointless as the next persons. Let’s be honest here, life is going nowhere as there is no way we can live among the stars whilst we destroy our own planet that keeps us alive. It’s a pity as the Red Indians had the right idea in not wasting anything that had a purpose. They were literally in touch with the spirit world, and we as a progressive race destroyed that for them. We should have learned from them, not them learn from us. Pity, as this world that we know is doomed!
But, that may be the way the spirits have planned it all along!
Mr Bee
Mr Bee 